freedom

finally, the torturous week comes to a close, and so too does my tenure here at Jurong Camp 3 Division HQ(albeit for only a short while). although the reprieve might not be what it all seems, i'm not taking anything for granted; anyplace that doesnt have the politics thats being played in my place is a safe haven for me.

will be going for the basic log course(finally) next week. pfah. people who just got commissioned and posted to their units can go for it immediatly, while me? i had to suffer 6months of being blur about everything and getting thrown into the deep end of the (saikang)pool before i finally get to go for the course. at least i wont be totally lost during the lessons. maybe i could even sneak in a nap or 2 if some of the lessons taught are already known to me.

another note. how nice. i got a virus named after me. thanks to a friend.now i shall conquer the world with this named-after-me virus. i'll have the world tremble before me, on its knees begging for mercy, begging me not to release the named-after-me-virus. mwahahhaha. thats just my megalomanical-wannabe side speaking out, dont get freaked out. hahah. guess i really do need some sleep desperately.. if only sleep would come find me at the right time...

blame n fame

logistics is a thankless job, worse still if you're the lowest form of accountability; which means you get all the blame and none of the glory...

i get no respect down here......

respect and impatience

whatever did i do to cause the sorry mess that i'm in now....

the whole week reeks of suckiness. if there's any song to describe it, it would be Fuel's "Bad Day", except it would apply to everyday of this week so far.

for some reason i simply cannot fathom, the CSM somehow seems to like my new office. he stayed in it for 2 days in a row(during office hours) and did nothing. what the FUCK did he have to do that for. i simply cannot stand that self pompous prick. he had the nerve to scold my guys, MY GUYS, in front of me and tell me 'respect is what you earn'. well, from what i see, the respect that he has, or at least he THINKS he has from the men come from his rank, not from their hearts. luckily he didnt come in today, or i would have chased him out.

now to the boss. he is simply, just simply, an impatient asshole. the driver made a wrong turn and missed the exit, so i had to go 1 BIG round to get to the place. he called me 2 times within 5minutes asking my progress. i told him at most 15minutes. it wasnt even 5minutes yet that he made his 2nd call. i mean, come on asshole, the minibus is under 60km/hr, and under speed regulators, its not an F1 ferrari or mclaren.

thats it for now...ranting's more or less done... still seething at the core though..

back

well, after the hiatus, guess who's back. not that i wasnt successful in my attempt, but rather someone pissed me off before i pulled the trigger... and no, i'm not making any excuses. but i reckon its sooner or later that someone's gonna get the paycheck on revenge handed to him. and it sure as hell aint on a cold silver platter.