bittersweet

thinking back on bittersweet memories
listening to the night's symphony
wracked with past agonies
pondering on the melodies

playing in the background
my thoughts go swirling round and round
till my head's starting to pound
listening to the notes in the background

thought of the blindness
of past doings and of youth
littered with regrets and sadness
little i could do

to change what is now the past
only to look forward
try to make what works now last
to forget everything else

thinking back on bittersweet memories
listening to the night's symphony
wracked with past agonies
mentally going through the list

of what i've done wrong
putting all the mistakes committed
into song
going through all things listed

the list never seems to end
every mistake seems to go on and on again
life keeps on replaying itself
life for me seems like nothing but living hell

does anyone ever notice
will anyone ever care
is this all there is
is this all that ends...