rotten

its already midweek, and so far, everything's just rotten. it couldnt possibly get any worse, but then again, things dont always happen the way you think they would.

not in any mood to work, nor in any mood to do anything. its just me and my 12year companionship of cigerettes, almost everyday and everynight, sitting or wandering in the neighbourhood park, stoning and smoking away. cant stand this feeling, everyday wasting myself away.

its not as if there's not alot of work to be done, quite on the contrary. but there's really just no drive left. everything's just so messed up that i'm just not in the mood to do any work. tolerated all the bullshit and empty promises for so long, now its almost reached a breaking point. all the sweet talk, the misleading messages from management, all utter bullshit.

screw.....