Wednesday, February 16, 2005

relationships

no, this isnt about any b-g-r rant or anything. its just some private musings. its seems like a trend to me. all my generations(couldnt find a better word) of friends seem to suffer from the same fate.

the ones from my primary school life were quite a few. we used to hang out everyday after school, playing soccer until my mom would come to school and drag me home. we'd also go to a friend's place to play the latest video games. after the PSLE exams, we'd gone our separate ways. we'd still hang around our old joints for the next 1 year or so, organise outings and reunions. but after that period of 1 year or so, everyone had pretty much moved on with their new lives and their new friends.

secondary school life was pretty much the same. only mom didnt come to school to drag me home. i hang around outside school after school hours with some friends, played soccer, went over friends' places to play video games, smoked, drinked, mixed in some bad company i know, but the only bad things were smoking and drinking, its not like i neglected my studies or whatsoever. i still scored pretty decently for the exams, and even my mom would have to admit, my 'O' Levels results were pretty good. when the end of the 4years came, some moved on to JC life, some into Polytechnics, others in ITE, one even went straight into the army. it was the same. except the time period for reunions and gatherings lasted for only a couple of months.

i still keep in contact with some of the girls, and i still (try to) play soccer with the guys every sunday. but it seems everyone has moved on yet again.

onto Poly life. most of the people in my batch opted for JC life. so it was a motley crew bunch of us that went into poly. of those that went JC, majority of them ended up in a JC next to my poly. so i still managed to hang out with some of them occassionally during my time at poly. it was rare to say the least.

poly life was pretty mundane. deadlines to meet. slacking to be done. i was pretty much introverted during my first 2 years. going to school then slacked until end of classes. at which i would then proceed back home to slack some more. my grades were pretty much FUBAR. it was only in year 3 that i met and made most of my close poly friends. we would stay back in the studio to play games after office hours, proceed to the nearby coffeeshop to have dinner and a puff before going back to play more games until the Tech Guy chases us back home. life was a breeze then.

almost 2years have passed since that time, and it seems the same thing that happened is begining to unravel again for this bunch of friends.

i really cherish all the friends that i've made, and it seems that we've really grown more and more distant as time goes on. i'd admit some of the blame should lay on me, but doesnt all relationships takes 2 hands to clap? organising a reunion or gathering is pretty hard when you have to accomodate different people's schedules. its even harder when some people would give half-interested replies or changes their mind at the last moment. its not that i didnt try. after the last failed attempt, i dont think i'd even bother to think about it for the next, like, 1year or so. besides, i dont think i have that much of a pulling power to make people attend a gathering organised by ME.

people move on, meet and make new friends,i'd admit, but that doesnt mean one can easily forget about the past or the goodtimes they had with the OLDER set of friends.

on another note, i'd like to thank the people who turned up for my pathetic request for a reunion last time round. i dont think i've done that last time round, so here's a belated attempt.

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