today
today, i have smoked a total of 25cigs(during working hrs). nothing to be proud of. nothing notable about it. apart from the fact that it was 11sticks straight during one session and another 14 sticks straight in another session. i guess the nickname 'dragon' from my men really means something. its not always i smoke so much at 1 go. i only do that when i'm really really bored or i'm troubled by certain events. today was a combination of both. all my superiors wasnt in today. no new requests to fulfill or tasks to complete. that covers the bored part.
the troubles were a bit more complicated. of course some part of it concerned girls. but majorly, the troubles were on my future. unlike most of my peers who went through the JC route(thus pretty much ensuring their place in the local university, and not to mention having no rush about the thoughts of their future), i opted for a more unconventional route(at least it was a route less taken at that time, and given my O level grades too). i'm not bragging, i'm not saying i'm a genius. hell no. i just got lucky in the exams.
but back then, just after getting the O level results, i could pretty much enter any JC, apart from Raffles, i want. instead, i went for the polytechnic route. i knew what i was getting myself into, at least i think i knew. only the top 10% of the course could enter the local universities(yeah talk about equality), but at that time, no local university offered any design degrees. i'm not rich enough to go overseas. so it would seem that the end of my poly days would also spell the end of my schooling days.
now, it seems like time for reality check. no local university options. no money to go overseas. no prospects of a game design career here in singapore. no money or financial backing for capital to start business venture. so it seems after my life in the army comes to an end, i'd most probably be left with little to none prospects.
daunting thoughts..
the troubles were a bit more complicated. of course some part of it concerned girls. but majorly, the troubles were on my future. unlike most of my peers who went through the JC route(thus pretty much ensuring their place in the local university, and not to mention having no rush about the thoughts of their future), i opted for a more unconventional route(at least it was a route less taken at that time, and given my O level grades too). i'm not bragging, i'm not saying i'm a genius. hell no. i just got lucky in the exams.
but back then, just after getting the O level results, i could pretty much enter any JC, apart from Raffles, i want. instead, i went for the polytechnic route. i knew what i was getting myself into, at least i think i knew. only the top 10% of the course could enter the local universities(yeah talk about equality), but at that time, no local university offered any design degrees. i'm not rich enough to go overseas. so it would seem that the end of my poly days would also spell the end of my schooling days.
now, it seems like time for reality check. no local university options. no money to go overseas. no prospects of a game design career here in singapore. no money or financial backing for capital to start business venture. so it seems after my life in the army comes to an end, i'd most probably be left with little to none prospects.
daunting thoughts..
posted by boredphuck at 7:25 pm
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