reflections on the past year

its boxing day, christmas was just yesterday, guess i should really be thankful for the past year and post some happy thoughts. i'd love to for a change, but everything in me and around me, just speaks volumes about negativity. and im just gorging on it.

the past year was nothing but...actually it was nothing. forgettable to say the least. so i went to taiwan, and brunei, and got commissioned. as well as the commissioning ball. so what. i still feel empty. like a husk. or maybe i'm just meant to breeze through my whole life feeling worthless and empty. everything was, and still is, fucked up, and i'll take the blame for it. im not blaming anyone for the state of my life. no, i'm thankful for the fact that i'm alive to feel all these negativity. maybe im just waiting for someone to come pull me out of this rut, or maybe im just waiting for the big bad cape-cladded Mr. D to come end this.

ok. shuck the bad things apart. heres the good part.




at least i'm not on drugs.