nothing
another day passes by, another day gone without doing anything. *sigh* when is work not work? i just basically show my face around the office and thats it.
but who am i to complain when the rest of my friends in University are still mugging away, preparing for their exams. haha. scary isnt it. how big the effect of a few overseas scholars in your class can transform a person. guess i'll never fit in into University, judging by the way my friends are going about their lives currently. i can never spend more than 5minutes studying some books or subjects which i have absolutely no interest in. read: any topic involving Mathematics, Science, Economics, Geography,etc. even if its a subject that holds my interest, i wouldnt be bothered to study it just because some people wants to test how much i can memorise. i'd rather read for pleasure's sake.
is it entirely possible to smoke your life away in a day? thats a question that just popped up in my head while on the trip home. nothing to do on the train, and mind tends to wander... i've been smoking so much lately. in the past, it used to be the 20sticks limit before the cigerettes have no taste. now its up to 30. if i continue at the rate i'm going, the threshold could either go up or plunge down to a deep low.
why is suicide a crime? why is it looked upon as 'access denied' into heaven? not that i'm christian or trying to raise a religious uproar...
i mean, the lives we have are ours.
its up to us how we want to live it out.
we dont owe anyone anything for our lives, apart from our parents.
if we see ourselves as unproductive, not contributing to society or just plain tired with the current world, why cant we just end it?
must we be made to prolong our suffering just because of society's outlook on suicide?
the problem with us is that we are too dependant on others. we are afraid to be different because we dont want to be judged different. because being different will make one stand out from the rest. and whenever things go wrong, the one that is different will always be used as a convenient scapegoat. why? because he/she is not with the rest of the crowd, the majority. and majority always wins.
oscar wilde: few people truly live their lives, the rest just purely exists.
but who am i to complain when the rest of my friends in University are still mugging away, preparing for their exams. haha. scary isnt it. how big the effect of a few overseas scholars in your class can transform a person. guess i'll never fit in into University, judging by the way my friends are going about their lives currently. i can never spend more than 5minutes studying some books or subjects which i have absolutely no interest in. read: any topic involving Mathematics, Science, Economics, Geography,etc. even if its a subject that holds my interest, i wouldnt be bothered to study it just because some people wants to test how much i can memorise. i'd rather read for pleasure's sake.
is it entirely possible to smoke your life away in a day? thats a question that just popped up in my head while on the trip home. nothing to do on the train, and mind tends to wander... i've been smoking so much lately. in the past, it used to be the 20sticks limit before the cigerettes have no taste. now its up to 30. if i continue at the rate i'm going, the threshold could either go up or plunge down to a deep low.
why is suicide a crime? why is it looked upon as 'access denied' into heaven? not that i'm christian or trying to raise a religious uproar...
i mean, the lives we have are ours.
its up to us how we want to live it out.
we dont owe anyone anything for our lives, apart from our parents.
if we see ourselves as unproductive, not contributing to society or just plain tired with the current world, why cant we just end it?
must we be made to prolong our suffering just because of society's outlook on suicide?
the problem with us is that we are too dependant on others. we are afraid to be different because we dont want to be judged different. because being different will make one stand out from the rest. and whenever things go wrong, the one that is different will always be used as a convenient scapegoat. why? because he/she is not with the rest of the crowd, the majority. and majority always wins.
oscar wilde: few people truly live their lives, the rest just purely exists.
posted by boredphuck at 1:00 am
1 Comments:
Jie here... duno if u would read this.. i have been reading ur blog all these while... i certainly hope that you can find what you want in life. And work towards them...
Hey u are not only good in drawing, i realised u are also good in writing. And composing. =)
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