what to do...
the change of language is purely because i really feel like speaking my mind about what happened, no gloss, no makeup, no fanciful english, just pure, unadulterated, uncensored me.
fucking sian. thought today would be a bad day. turn out quite ok, luckily for the rain in the afternoon, otherwise confirm tonight fucking insomnia again. then again, the rain lasted so long, the bed was so comfortable, i ended up sleeping through lunch time all the way to dinner. even though i've just had dinner, now still hungry like fuck.
checked my email inbox in regards to a meeting up session with a friend involving a business prospect and an application for a job. i thought that since today was a public holiday, confirm no reply one, at most maybe the friend will send an email. but there they were, 2 separate emails from the friend and the company.
firstly, the email from the friend was more or less what was expected from our discussions. what he was offering is really tempting for me, and i do have quite a huge amount of interest in the industry. its not some five-minute-fad, not an impulse-heat-of-a-moment thing. but what made me apprehensive was the fact that i have basically no, zilch, nada, kosong experience of being in marketing/sales/etc. while i was pretty sure i could survive, or even make it, somehow, i feel that jumping straight in without any one to help is akin to bungee jumping without the bungee rope. not to mention that there's a huge amount of money(relative to me) going to be involved.
secondly, the job ad reply from the company was the guy wanted to see my graphic design portfolio. major crap. all my graphic designs were those unofficial sketches which were turned out. other then that, i dont really have an acceptable graphic design portfolio. but i wasnt really interested in that job position either.
what i die-die want the position is the illustrator one. fucking sianz. applied 3times 3times kena reject. fucking cheebye. first time interview went ok. heard from my friend, (although after much pestering him), working at the place that the boss said my portfolio impressive, but too bad i lack experience. i'm like, what the fuck, nabei puacheebye, kanninah!! thats a pretty fucking lame excuse to me. wah liew, i say. put so much hard work into the inteview, everything went smoothly, thank you letter type nice nice, correspondence going well, end up fucking "not enough experience". people say what sianz ½, aku sianz ½ oso dont have. kanninah, hear the stupid experience excuse, limbei sianz until want to sleep oso cannot sleep. super sianz. now its like almost a month since i last applied, the company still havent filled up the position, now even put up ads in other websites, still no luck. i thought why not try second time, or 3rd time. doesnt hurt to try right? fucking cheebye. the email i sent out even goes like 3/4 of the email is about my interest in the illustrator position. pua cheebye, the reply email didnt even touch on that, machiam like i never apply for the position liddat. bang balls man.
so fucking sianz, today. whole world machiam screwed up for me. what do you do when you finally found your dream job, yet your dream job rejects you, not because your abilities cannot make it, but because you kena shoot down by experience. fuck sia. i didnt even go onto what fucking experience they want. think should be 1st company in Singapore going to start a trading card game machiam "Magic" liddat. fuck what experience they want? i'm sure there's no one who is local, holding a fucking diploma, served finished NS and is between 20-30yrs of age that got experience in this field one lor. fucking tui, i can say. feeling after hearing the sorry sod's excuse worse than bang balls. whole world shattered the 感觉.
so now, i'm in a dilemna. the company's offering me a chance to view my graphic design portfolio, while my friend is offering me a chance to start up own business. one is risk free, other is must take (calculated)risks. i think i can pom and hantum out a decent portfolio, yet i'm pretty sure the "experience" excuse will be thrown back at me. at the same time, i'm really stuck between interested and apprehensive about my friend's offer. fuck sia. now this type of decision how to make. aku tak boleh tahan liao sia.
fucking sian. thought today would be a bad day. turn out quite ok, luckily for the rain in the afternoon, otherwise confirm tonight fucking insomnia again. then again, the rain lasted so long, the bed was so comfortable, i ended up sleeping through lunch time all the way to dinner. even though i've just had dinner, now still hungry like fuck.
checked my email inbox in regards to a meeting up session with a friend involving a business prospect and an application for a job. i thought that since today was a public holiday, confirm no reply one, at most maybe the friend will send an email. but there they were, 2 separate emails from the friend and the company.
firstly, the email from the friend was more or less what was expected from our discussions. what he was offering is really tempting for me, and i do have quite a huge amount of interest in the industry. its not some five-minute-fad, not an impulse-heat-of-a-moment thing. but what made me apprehensive was the fact that i have basically no, zilch, nada, kosong experience of being in marketing/sales/etc. while i was pretty sure i could survive, or even make it, somehow, i feel that jumping straight in without any one to help is akin to bungee jumping without the bungee rope. not to mention that there's a huge amount of money(relative to me) going to be involved.
secondly, the job ad reply from the company was the guy wanted to see my graphic design portfolio. major crap. all my graphic designs were those unofficial sketches which were turned out. other then that, i dont really have an acceptable graphic design portfolio. but i wasnt really interested in that job position either.
what i die-die want the position is the illustrator one. fucking sianz. applied 3times 3times kena reject. fucking cheebye. first time interview went ok. heard from my friend, (although after much pestering him), working at the place that the boss said my portfolio impressive, but too bad i lack experience. i'm like, what the fuck, nabei puacheebye, kanninah!! thats a pretty fucking lame excuse to me. wah liew, i say. put so much hard work into the inteview, everything went smoothly, thank you letter type nice nice, correspondence going well, end up fucking "not enough experience". people say what sianz ½, aku sianz ½ oso dont have. kanninah, hear the stupid experience excuse, limbei sianz until want to sleep oso cannot sleep. super sianz. now its like almost a month since i last applied, the company still havent filled up the position, now even put up ads in other websites, still no luck. i thought why not try second time, or 3rd time. doesnt hurt to try right? fucking cheebye. the email i sent out even goes like 3/4 of the email is about my interest in the illustrator position. pua cheebye, the reply email didnt even touch on that, machiam like i never apply for the position liddat. bang balls man.
so fucking sianz, today. whole world machiam screwed up for me. what do you do when you finally found your dream job, yet your dream job rejects you, not because your abilities cannot make it, but because you kena shoot down by experience. fuck sia. i didnt even go onto what fucking experience they want. think should be 1st company in Singapore going to start a trading card game machiam "Magic" liddat. fuck what experience they want? i'm sure there's no one who is local, holding a fucking diploma, served finished NS and is between 20-30yrs of age that got experience in this field one lor. fucking tui, i can say. feeling after hearing the sorry sod's excuse worse than bang balls. whole world shattered the 感觉.
so now, i'm in a dilemna. the company's offering me a chance to view my graphic design portfolio, while my friend is offering me a chance to start up own business. one is risk free, other is must take (calculated)risks. i think i can pom and hantum out a decent portfolio, yet i'm pretty sure the "experience" excuse will be thrown back at me. at the same time, i'm really stuck between interested and apprehensive about my friend's offer. fuck sia. now this type of decision how to make. aku tak boleh tahan liao sia.
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